.... Last Post on Aspiration....

.. a young man, with dark hair and strikingly intelligent eyes, named Tim said, whimsically that my first three weeks in the new offices was like the arrival of a 'fizzbomb incendiary'....

I burst out laughing... it is the title to this new blog I have decided!

I was starting to think I was becoming creatively challenged today as I felt highly strung and hyperactive - more than usual. Tim's dispirin salvo was intuitively delivered and I felt an honest expose' of how I am.

It is I am sure the same for others too, to try to fit in any place any time for those of us that know solitude in mental silence - even if our outsides are in a combative arena that requires an engaging dialogue of repartee.

As I left the building I saw a message on my phone from my sweetest of friends Carmila, she is a beautifier, in my mind. I discovered her at my gym, and from that earliest of encounters I realised what a forgiving and deeply engaging personality she had. It felt like being sisters, easy, unaffected and unchallenging. She will always make me feel a sense of acceptance and also comprehension, I think it is her intelligent and brightly lit eyes. They remind one of both a child in a tomboy of a woman. Then when she dances in a club setting she seems transformed into a feminine and sensual woman who feels great pleasure from being tuned into the beat and pulsating rythmns that fill the air.

She invites me over and even her quick messages are like her, inviting, bold and straightforward. At times like this, I smile, there is a seriousness in her that belies the humour and racy wit that she uses as a guard for boredom.  The is another Fizz-bomb Incendiary!

... to be continued ....                                                 Copyright © Xsapph

Stanza from Leopard Eye, written 29 - 09 - '99 by xsapph


... Camouflaged amongst zebra stripes of variegated grasses...
Disappear, reappear in clusters of tea roses, preening and preoccupied....













Photo credit: Photo by Dennis Conner. Courtesy of Snow Leopard Trust.
Photo location: Woodland Park Zoo; Seattle, WA - USA.